What expectation? What? If you want to take a break from anyone then you have the right to say so. Living up to what everyone wants you to be is no way to go on..funny how I’m saying that shit though. What do you think everyone wants of you?

Personally?  

I’ve had a lot of friends just up and leave — no contact, no real reason why, no explanation. They ‘replaced’ me in a sense. 

I know I’m far from perfect. My personality is strong and can vary depending on the situation. But.. I’ve somehow just conditioned myself to believe that I drove them away. It’s happened on more then one occasion, so it’s hard to not let it effect me. And sadly, I’ve begun doing that to people I care about because I’m selfishly trying to prevent myself from being hurt.

So, when I admire someone’s strength and personality; I find it hard for myself to be as close as I want to with people because I always think I’m just not the person they would think I am.

And typing this out, I know how silly it sounds aha.